reinvention

will convert this to a blog that caters to men's fashion.

Magic, The gathering

magic thegathering, was the first love of my life, geeky as it seems but this card saved me from most of the vices that normal teenagers would go through, it also provided me an "outlet" of my teenage angst. its been 10 years but i still love hte game so goes the saying "first love never dies".
magic is a complicated game that if you take time to understand, youll fall in love with the complexities of the storyline, the odd-off the wall creatures, the mana source, the spell casting, the rules of legends,planeswalkers, flying, first strike (im talking gibrish right now am i?) but yes this is what make magic:the gathering unique. i've read somwhere that there are two types of magic players those who are "competitive", and the "fantasy player's", the former these are the type of players that play it for the sake of winning, money, superiority but usually it last 4-5 years then they lose interest in the game, hte second types are a bit tricky its boreders insanity and foolishness like me. fantasy players are in it for the long run, they picture themselves part of the world of magic a planeswalker, its an alternate reality of some sort that fantasy players create for themselves that they alone know ho to go to. magic:the gathering has changed my life in a major way, it saved me when i was young, from the vices that could have seriously destroyed my life, i know a few people who dropped their cards and made the wrong choices, im saying this because im entering a phase where maybe the fantasy player becomes a competitive player, a new block is on the way and im exited and afraid that i may fall into the category like the other planeswalker a.k.a. (people that i know) but i hope that my love for this game will never end. in a way im still the child that fell in love with the game, the one that refused to grew up like the children of neverland. but one thing is for sure walllets will be emptied when the new cards are introduced :)

time flies by so fast that i cant keep up.

Every bus ride when im alone is a torture for me, for some reason everytime i board that public transpo it takes me to the past, for each passing cars that i see a a year peels back, only arousing memories of things that could have done, missed opportunities, and people's faces you know but now cant find, i bealive that time flies so fast that people don't even notice that there a year older, with technology beckons "a promise of an easier life" but failed to mention a fast one. 10 years ago i was out at the street playing kids stuff with my childboorhood friends, everyday were playing the same thing,getting better ay it, we were best buds. now i don't even have their cell phone numbers, everybody wish that they could turn time, do something that they think is right. 10 years ago i would give up everything to be older, be legal do anything that i wasn't allowed to do. now that im i wished that im still that 14 year old kid that longed to be older, but alas the irony. we can't do nothing to reverse it, i will still ride the same bus and remember the times no. "good times" that passed.

rain..

whooa, who would have thought that it will rain today? all the weeks and days of tormenting heat will get into you, without any formal warning i did see some overcast but expecting any rain this day. the rain today is somewhat refreshing the way home is diffrent instead of worrying about the prickly heat, i now was bombarded with a diffrent kind of sensation wet and sticky which was a good change. today was what i called bad juju day, up for suspension for 3 days because of ncns, got bad quality score and to add insult to injury, i got a dsat, and the grey surroundings and cold atmosphere just finished it off. the rain gave me new perspective, that i cant have it my way, the least i could do is to be prepared, all i can do is duck and run for cover. the rain changed the landscade that im use seeing when i ride a baby bus, usually dry wind will pick up dirt and hurdle it towards your face making you feel like a pan with gresed butter on it, now its diffrent cold and damp all you wanna do is just lie and sleep which in my case just sit and relax while the surroundings pale and seemed fog had covered it, i never thought that i would say this but i did miss the rain, wi

the churches i saw and conquered...

i was never a church goer, even though i was raised catholic, and each sunday when i was a kid my parents would take me to the house of god but i never took it really at heart, never memorized the songs, nor listened to the preacher, or the proper decorum one must act when youre inside the house of god. again... i was a kid i would run around and find other kids playing outside the park i havent heard the term or understood the term "god fearing" now i am.

well this is my next blog after a long hiatus ♥k♥ always wants to me to continue to write he even mentioned to me that "i have potential" naks...

i had a small trip with ♥k♥ rediscovering manila as we stumbbled a few churches on the way a few shocked me and put me into awe.now i wont be preaching about god, about world peace, or found my purpose in life, i just want to post the pictures.☺ first whould be san sebastian church in manila, when i was in collage in feu i always see this stucture always admiring the outside design never knowing what jaw dropping architectural wonders it hides inside, when i finally entered it well lets just say that i lost my pants.. futher research this church was built in 1891 which is soo cool.some of the things here are older than my grandma.

next would be one of the "most popular churches" here in the philippine quiapo church where the black nazarene resides funny thing about this church is that taking pictures are not allowed and luckily ♥k♥ snap a picture of the lone angel in the entrance of this church.and if youll check the nazarene its been covered, it was black saturday.

divisoria church is the next stop...nothing really interesting to say but the outside interiors are worth a look, old, musty and falling a part. ☺

next would be manila cathedral now this was just an accidental find, our feet brought us to the famed walls of intramuros and we kinda got lost in the midst of long conversations and fascination with architetures from the 1800's we were just walking and with one wrong turn we found this.

well i guess i have to say something in the end, well it was tiring, at the end of the day we smell bad☺, but the experience was fun.

the night i puked all over makati...

After waiting for my bf, after 9 hours were finally off. it was a promising night, the sky is clear, the people up and about, air thick with smoke, the same makati nightime we walked from glorietta to the parks around the city finally settling down to salcedo park, we watched how people do their nightly run, diffrent race, kids with american accents, funny actually a mix of people in an enchanting piece of land located in one of the bussiest place in manila...we talked of the future and our fears, our hopes and dreams, and our plans it was a wonderful night, when suddenly i felt weird i know that i havent really eaten anything that day, but i remembered that i had an apple in my bag, and so i munch away thinking about the future then i suddenly felt sick, i wanna puke, but i thought that i can handle it or its just me and i just need to unbutton my pants so that i can breathe easily.. well after that lets just say that im running towards the nearest restroom that i can find, first in a starbucks restroom, second in paseo center and lets just say tha the rest where everywhere, in front of petron, in the gas stations cr...literally everywhere..at first i thought that it was just the apple or the fit and right that i had, but it accured to me my body might be rejecting food, well this hasnt happen to me, but iv'e been trying to lose wait all my life im in my healthy state now, but on the back of my mind there allways a voice telling me that's too much or too many, or you need to lose more weight even though im in the best shape ever...i think society got to me an image of a perfect person, bulging muscles, a size 29 waistline, and a muscular physique, shallow it may seem but we know that this has been a standard of beauty for men, and no matter how we shrug ourshoulders the little voice on the back of our heads are saying otherwise...well i thought it was too much dieting i havent really eaten anything that day an apple can make me puke? well that's what happened... i was scared i don't know what to do... i took a rest, i ate something warm (kfc's soup) but everything that i ingest just go back up heck even water i puke...luckly i was withsomeone who cared enough and had a alertness to take me in makati med..well i was not up for it, i don't want to be hospitalized with bills and medical hoora's im against the idea...what i wanted was the feeling to go away...but i let him take me, he having the better judgement and thinking at that time...i slept at his lap on the cab going there, when we got there it was the usual checking and signing of papers, nurses pretending to be uber attentive and smart and very put together i hated it, i never was a person who show themselves being weak or helpless... i was injected with some medicine stuff that i cant even pronounce..lets just say after that i was woozy everything was blurry all i can see is a bed and its soothing voice telling me "come here"...after an hour or so i was ok...i learned that night that do not take yourself for granted... yes society's pressure is a contributing to what i feel and what i think what is right but im learning to breathe and le go...

shaving my head...

finally i shaved my head to its roots! wooooohoooo well it was a long battle with the stylist at bench fix i always asked them if the semikal look suits me, i never got a straight answer though. now hair is important, this becomes a trade mark, our armor, our sense of who we are, now imagine that armor being taken down leaving you expose for everyone to see... that's difficult... but i said to myself if im not doing it now when will i be ready? when will i be ready for new things? i decided then and there to shave it off, mario (fix hairstylist) was already finishing up my hair when i said: "just shave it all off" right then and there i saw my armor falling like chunks of metal falling before my very eyes, i dared not to look in the mirror but you cant help it, people were staring at me wondering if i were crazy, well i wasnt..sort off... hehehe after that i quick rinse and a shampoo i looked in the mirror, i cannot recognize my self the red big lips where there, the same mole, some zits and blackhead, deep set eyes, but i look diffrent! i cannot recognize myself...is this the real me? was the hair was just a mask? it took time for me to get over the shock factor everytime i look into a mirror. but lets just say that i gambled good and i won, i think that im getting more attention now than ever when i had my hair. well this doesnt apply to guys only if you dont want to go bald try a diffrent cut, sytle, color....life is just to big for you to have one look.

100 things to do before i die

well to start the new year i wanted something diffrent, i want to do something that i don't do before hence i put my eyes on blogging...well here's my first entry.. the rule is simple complete the list, no changing, no alteration and if you have done that before you have to do it again.. and yeah you can patent your list with mine:)

100 things to do before i die

1.) shave my head
2.) watch the sunset alone
3.) watch the sunrise with someone
4.) get a tatoo
5.) climb a mountain
6.) plant a tree
7.) write a book
8.) learn how to drive
9.) learn a foreign language
10.) learn how to swim
11.) move out of the house by 25
12.) appear in a movie
13.) visit another country
14.) finish collage
15.) paint a picture (a good one)
16.) learn how to draw
17.) try bunjie jumping
18.) invent something that actually works
19.) read the bible
20.) change someone's life (they have to say this to you)
21.) watch a broadway show
22.) watch a major concert
23.) participate in a rally
24.) visit a home for the aged
25.) run in a marathon
26.) have atleast 100 pairs of shoes
27.) sleep with a hooker
28.) put up a bussiness
29.) participate in a threesome
30.) name a star after yourself
31.) visit a memorable place and reminisce
32.) teach a class for a day
33.) volunteer for a good cause
34.) visit a tourist spot in your country
35.) watch kids play in a playground
36.) fall in love, really fall inlove
37.) make friends with stranger
38.) sunbathe on a beach
39.) watch an old black and white film
40.) pose nude in a photograph
41.) learn how to cook
42.) learn how to dance
43.) babysit even once
44.) be a judge in a competition
45.) write a poem for someone
46.) write a msg and throw it at sea
47.) write a love letter
48.) try a taboo dish
49.) buy a really expensive thing
50.) hug your mom and tell her that she is special
51.) watch a firework display
52.) do 1 act of random kindless
53.) shoplift atleast once
54.) visit the city zoo
55.) write a song
56.) watch a movie alone
57.) dance infront of people
58.) spend 24 hours with one person
59.) lose 10 or 20 lb's
60.) scream your heart out
61.) watch someone sleep
62.) visit a museum
63.) complete a thousand piece puzzle
64.) go to all shops in a mall
65.) surprise someone (romatically)
66.) sing the national anthem
67.) donate your old clothes
68.) enter a strip club
69.) scuba dive
70.) go to a theme park
71.) participate in a rave party
72.) pull a prank on april fool's
73.) learn the constallation
74.) buy a house or a condo
75.) have your destiny read
76.) get really really hammered
77.) ice skate
78.) participate in a costume party
79.) throw a birthday bash for someone
80.) dance in a rain with someone and kiss them
81.) make love outdoors
82.) learn to rollerblade
83.) see a comet passby
84.) touch a lion
85.) have ur portrait painted
86.) witness a birth of a baby
87.) carve ur name on a tree
88.) attend a wedding
89.) make someone cry of happiness
90.) visit the city jail
91.) learn to play a music intrument
92.) see a lunar eclipse
93.) sleep under the stars
94.) own a car ( a nice one)
95.) live in a motel/hotel for a month
96.) be naked in your house for 24 hours
97.) spend a day without any gadgets or any electronic device
98.) watch a game live
99.) survive a near death experience
100.) finish the list

simple hope i ge to finish this...